“I am enough. I am not my history” – Melody Ehsani
This article’s theme area:
PERSONAL POWER, BEHAVIOUR PATTERNS
From My Perspective: Sihle Mahonga January 22, 2013
Never did I ever think that I would be one of those ‘shamed students who take FOREVER to complete their degrees. I am now in my 5th year out of school and still have a year and a half to complete my degree. Now, you might be thinking to yourself “geesh whats taking her so long to finish a 3 year degree?” and this is what they DON’T tell you when you fail or you take another major or you simply want to take your time.
- The somewhat shame that is connected to an underperforming or ‘slow’ student
- The raised eyebrow every time you say your student number in relation to your year of study
- Your own voices telling you “LOSER” “STUPID” “WHAT WERE YOU THINKING” “I KNEW IT, ITS TOO HARD”
I know them all…but you see it isn’t all black and white between achievers and non-achievers.
There are those who, stifled by society, are pushed into the life of academia. Those who at 1am in the morning cut cloth, paint, draw, write music, update their scrapbook – only to get up in the morning and carry the never-ending flow of textbooks. Those whose parents pressure their children to do something that they never thought of themselves doing, all for a piece of paper called a degree.
I’m not calling down on academia but I am calling down on those who think academia is life. Right now I have applied to study Music and Fashion (depending on which one I am chosen for).
I wasn’t built for academia
I was built to create and inspire, to roll around in my imagination and bring forth life.
I write, I sing very well, I draw- what I can do with these hands and mind is enough.
My creative mind is enough.
My body (and the crazy things I adorn it with) is enough.
I am enough
I’m not my high school math paper (which mind you, was 23%). I am not what my friends think when I told them that I was on a different path to them. I am not my so called ‘lost years’. I am not my history.
I am going for it and I know somehow, I’m going to make it through. Don’t let doubt and deviant behavior of society define who you are. You who are fearfully and wonderfully made.
I am enough. I am not my history.